I just finished replying in a couple of topics on the PACE Board. One was about
natural selection and population controls in the wild and the other was about
the treatment of the remains of people long dead. What I realized was that I'm either excessively practical, totally insensitive and callous, or just really good at taking a step back from my emotions. In the post about natural selection, I made the point that if a coyote in the city were to eat a human baby it would be a good thing for two reasons. One, that it would be one less maladjusted adult to live, cause problems in society, and reproduce beacuse its parents weren't attentive enough. Two because even though we are at the "top" of the food chain, we can't forget that sometimes we slip a little. In the other, I was arguing that there really isn't any reason to worry about a corpse's feelings, since the soul is long gone or that we can make it ok after the fact.
I really think/hope that it's the last option. Really. What good could come from being practical to that point? I'm actually thinking that could even be dangerously psychotic/psychopathic. Problem is, I really do believe that. I'd feel bad for the parents and the rest of the kid's family, but still, from an absolutely objective point of view, it IS in the greater good.
Well, if I'd feel bad for the parents, I guess I'm not that insensitive. Callous? No. I can't conciously, deliberately hurt someone unless I know it's going to save them more pain later on.
Good.
That just leaves the ability to disassociate myself with the situation. I guess I'll have to keep an eye on that. It could cause problems later on if I start taking it too far. At this stage/level, I'm thinking that's a really good thing. That's probably why I can handle stress so well. It could also come in useful in trying to make all sorts of difficult decisions, although there I'll have to be careful not to ignore the human factors in those. Then again, one thing I learned while I was selling the calendars for S.T.A.R.S. Ambulance is that the really rich people and the really successful in business all seem to have a total disregard for peoples' feelings. That's a topic for another time though...
Bye!
Ben
At least I feel a little better about myself now.